I can hardly hold my eyes open this morning, not because the sun is shining into them. In fact, it's rained almost all night, and I know this because I barely slept a wink. God and I were up most of the night talking things over, trying to come up with an additional plan, other than Plan A which is to trust in the Lord with all your heart.
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Tuesday night Justin had called me all upset about something----more lay offs at work, and this time, my very dear friend, Betty. She's been with my former company nearly 12 years but the boss had to let a mess of people go, including Mike, the superintendent, now called "builder", who has also been with the company for many years. He's young, hopefully he can find another job, but not so for Betty. In fact, today is her birthday and I believe she's in her late 50's, and it's also her last day. Gulp! Of course, this news threw me for a loop as only a skeleton crew remains, few contracts in the future........yes, it's hitting real close to home now!
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Yesterday my greatest (nearly) fears were realized when my phone rang and the ID showed my former spouses' name. Oh no, this can't be good! And I was correct, it wasn't good. To make a sad story short and not reveal huge amounts of information, I am being asked to take a pay cut, or at least begin the bargaining process. "You can't get blood from a turnip" is one of the reasons given. This news is not a terrible surprise but it is wretched nonetheless. All this keeping in mind that the Lord has the world and its machinations in His hand.....but, I just wish I understood more.
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In an unusual turn of events, and I'll discuss this more another time, I found myself sympathetic during this uneasy conversation, harkening back to the times we struggled together to get our bearings after our partner left. That was when I went to work at Sprint, to earn us insurance and float money until the economy turned around again, and we were accepted as preferred builders into Eagle Harbor. I've said before that if I hadn't already lost a child, losing my business or my part of it, was like losing a child---we'd raised it up from nothing. I always tried to keep in mind from whence cometh our help. And yesterday, my former spouse told me he'd said to several people already that this was the second worst week of his life. We all know the what the worst week was...........there is really no comparison.
